Story Two - New Years

 Well new years came around and I wasn't expecting anything but I got a message from a friend that I was invited to a party. I wasn't sure I wanted to go because I'm not much of a party-er ( I know my pic says otherwise) or very social at all but I kinda wanted to get wasted so I went. The party turned out to be a good time and I got drunk as all hell after drinking a whole bottle of my favorite rum (Kraken) and was looking forward to passing out wherever they would let me. I hoped I could finally sleep and finally get some relief. It seemed inevitable : a couple days without sleep, lots of Kraken, and good cheer. I had to pass out, right? When I laid down on the floor, that I got  to share with my drunk friends, no sleep came. I watched and watched them, breath slow and steady, but no pulls towards peace to my waking mind came. Slowly sadness instead of the usual aggravation crept in. I wasn't like them, I couldn't sleep like them, and lastly I had no one to hold. My friends had girlfriends and boyfriends to hold them and help them sleep. I was different and alone. I had never felt so separated from normal people like I did then. I also truly missed sleep for the first time. I always wanted to sleep but it was more to avoid the effects of Insomnia then to actually engage in the act itself. Before I would gladly go without sleep if somehow could take away the side-effects. Now I wanted to belong. It was shortlived as morning came, as I took some pride and solace in my difference. After all, who wants to be normal?