Still Awake

Comment by Vincent D on October 1, 2011 at 11:36am

Hi Tracey,

Sorry to hear you end up in intensive care due to trying to deal with your insomnia.

I am not sure how much I can help as I am only sleeping 2 or 3 hours max a night at the moment but then my wife has just told me she is leaving me and we have a 6 year old daughter so the worry, doubt, fear or the future and paranoia as to what my wife is doing and with who has been going over in my mind.

 

Is your insomnia due to your brain working over and over on something, as in is it a mental process of having something on your mind. The only way I have ever been able to deal with this is to do something that is mentally challenging as long as possible each day when you can't sleep. I used to listen to talk radio which used to help to but not always, I used to find that as soon as I really got interested in the subject they were talking I would fall asleep, my wife could never sleep with the radio on so I had to stop doing that but now I may as well give it a try again, do you have any good talk radio shows in Ohio.

 

What also helps for me is trying to make myself physically tired. That said none of this is working for me at the moment so it depends on your situation.

It came to a head for me yesterday when it was clear that if my boss saw me at work in such a tired, depressed and low state at work it could affect my future. He didn't put it in so many words but in my job I need to be awake, happy and enthusiastic around the staff. Because of that I need to let go of what my wife is doing to me behind my back. I thought I would sleep last night because I was in a better place mentally and I had decided not to drink alcohol to deal with this, but I have been guilty of using that in the past for sleep.

 

Your answer, I do not know, there are so many variants between what is going on in your home and work life, your health and so on.

 

Meditation can help but not when your mind is racing. Yoga is meant to help but as yet never really got into it. Not sure any of this is any help.

 

Do you watch the films in bed? And what kind? Happy? Sad? Etc

 

If I find a cure I would love to tell you all, still searching.

 

Vincent.

 

Comment by sleephurts on October 2, 2011 at 2:04am

communicating like you did in this post

 

Comment by Tracey Tulanian on October 2, 2011 at 9:19am

Please Vincent I will take any help you can or are willing to offer. Yes I have been trying movies to help me sleep, really boring ones or ones I have seen so many times that I know them by heart. That doesn't work, hot baths don't work, reading doesn't work, although years ago it used to, not anymore. Last night I was up till 730 am , my back and muscles ache, I am irritable, and suffering now from deppresion. I can hardly function. My huband is ok with it as long as I don't wake him up whining that I can't sleep. He sleeps very well (So freakin jealous ) While I spend what seems like 24 hours, it feels that way, being up ALL NIGHT. I tried to "chat" but appararently I am the ONLY one up... is this a site for insomniacs, like me, or just those that have trouble getting to sleep. I have tried for days now, to no avail. Just someone to talk me through this would help me immesely.Thank you for writing me but I don't hit the insomniac's web page till about 2 or 3 am when I have tried everything else first. Then I get desperate and real pyshical and mental pain. Thanks for writing me I appreciate the help and support more than you could ever imagine...

Up All Night and running out of dvd's to watch ( watdhing JFK  now,seen it a hundred times, but thought it may help me sleep, since it it so long as the courtroom scene is half as long as the movie.

Thanks so much for writing me such a kind and caring letter. It really meant a lot to me. I will pray for you ( I am no religioous freak) but with all this and going to Catholic Shools my wbole life  i dont go church but I havd]have been ptaying  a lot lately, especially for sleep and nothing is working... 

Comment by Lewis Taylor on October 5, 2011 at 1:53am

Hey Tracey, I'm only 17 but I've had really bad insomnia since I was 14 and have used many varieties of sleeping pills and herbal medication. I can relate to the feelings of being annoyed that no one is online when this is supposed to be an insomniacs chat site. Some things that have helped me in the past is finding some one at home to write down on a piece of paper all the things that you are worrying about and are thinking about. Then go through the list and talk about them until you in a way feel less burdened with the thoughts. Then once you've gone through them all, rip up the piece of paper over and over again and throw them in the bin. It sounds a bit like what a shrink would tell you to do but it relaxes me and maybe could do the same for you :) let me know how it goes

Comment by Tracey Tulanian on October 5, 2011 at 8:54am

Hey Lewis,

That sounds like a fabulous deal but unfortunately the only 2 people I live with don't have insomnia and they are both asleep by 10 pm!!! So here I am again at 252am tonight wide awake and so frustrated I could just scream. But thanks so much for the advice and for writing me back. I guess we both just will have to SUFFER through this maybe forever.... Write back sometime you seem very intelligent and sweet and kind-hearted!!

Thanks Tracey

Comment by Lewis Taylor on October 6, 2011 at 1:35am

I dont think forever Tracey....Like most things in life it will pass but obviously for the time being it is absolutely horrible! I live in London so by the time you come online to this chat room I'm already on my way to college which is HIGHLY inconvenient! If there was a message thing on here like Facebook you could send me a few of your worries..understandable if you don't want to but I could offer some advice on how to deal with a few things :) anything I can do to help. Write back soon x

Lewis  

Comment by Tracey Tulanian on October 7, 2011 at 10:30am

Hey Lewis, I just got online tonight, when I can't sleep. and I accepted your friendship request. I did sleep tonight but only for about 2 hours, its now after 4 am here in Ohio. Just moved here from being born and raised in California and the weather sucks!! When its hot it humid,like walking into a sauna, and now its cold as hell and it hasnt' even hit winter yet. BTY I have never even seen snow except on TV so I have that to look forward to...And being a woman, it is basically impossible to look good or sexy with a freakin parka on, so I am having serious self-esteem issues. We have been living here for a little over a month and all I am unpacking is tank tops and shorts and mini-skirts (California dress code) So how does a woman look sexy or even pretty with 3 liners of clothing and a winter coat, scarf, ski-hat and gloves? Its not possible....Even Marilyn Monroe couldn't look sexy out here. And I need to look for  a job in this economy,which is almost impossible.... Well Lewis thank you so much for writing me and offering to listen, the one talent I have in life is talking or writing and you may wish you never added me as a friend because I can write for hours. I hope that never happens....I truly appreciate having someone to talk to right now since sleep is impossible. I like your advice but I am so new here I really don't have anyone to talk to about all my worries. But having you to write to helps a lot!!! Are you on face-book, I would love to add you as a friend and we could get to know eachother better than just these posts? Have a lot of problems right now, and if you are willing to listen, you are my newfound angel. So whats it like living in London? Always wanted to go for a visit but could never afford something like that, so you will have to tell me. Is it cold like Ohio, what are you studying in school, how do you deal with your insomnia and go to school and function? So many questions???? I really am interested...you are such a kind soul to even write to me and I need you to know how deeply I appreciate it.

You are a very sweet and kind person and I am really glad to have you for a new friend.

Have a cherished day. Cheers!! Tracey 

Comment by Lewis Taylor on October 7, 2011 at 5:09pm

I agree with you that you have a talent for writing Tracey!!! I can see such enthusiasm from you even though you are sleep deprived which in my opinion is really something! Yeah I've got facebook and I sent you my facebook name in a message to your profile. Well sounds like California was the place to grow up with all the ladies goin round in mini skirts and such. I was just wondering if you suffered with insomnia while you were living in California?

The weather in Ohio sounds miles better than London...when its not sunny is raining, when its not raining its snowing and when its not snowing its foggy! 

You are SUCH a woman for worrying about looking sexy in the winter!!! To be honest id rather be warm than have people look me up and down in the street! Obviously I understand that women have a need to dress up nicely and present themselves well but you seriously don't need to worry about any of that yet!!! 

Living in London is busy! Everyone is hustle and bustle and gloomy faces but its night time when everyone comes out to have a good time....I guess thats one perk of being an insomniac. We can go out and party all night without feeling tired by the end of it..especially with a few drinks down your neck.

Functioning at college is about as easy as eating a washing machine. I manage to the point of when I go into a lecture I fall asleep on my desk! It's my second year at college and I'm studying mechanics which I guess is a good skill to have. 

I hope to see your friend request soon! Can't wait to get to know you better!

Write me soon Yankee!

Lewis x 

Comment by Tracey Tulanian on October 7, 2011 at 5:58pm

Hey Lewis!!!

I finally fell back asleep around 5 am and woke up around 9 am so I am praying that with that little bit of hours of sleep that just maybe I will sleep tonight.

It was so great to read your email back and get to know you. You sound like you have a good way to deal with insomnia sometimes-just go out and party. I don't really have that luxury anymore. I don't go out and party here, I am so new to this mid-west type of life and god awful weather that all my old friends are out in California, I do miss them so very much.

Wow! The weather there sounds even worse than here, which I cannot even imagine, not yet having ever in my life, being in snow. Or even seeing REAL snow. I guess I have that to look forward to. Actually kind-of nervous about it now that I am actually here in Ohio. 

You really listen to me and what I have to say when I write to you. Very good question you asked. No I didn't have this type of insomnia at all when I lived in California. West Hollywood to be more specific. I mean I had a bad night here and there but never like this, which has made me think if the big move has added to that change. Do I need to just "settle-in" or will I be this way forever now, changed in some sort of way. I just don't know.

As for College I am very proud of you for being so dedicated and ambitious. A lot of young people these days don't have that kind of drive. I actually look up to you for being so.

And it IS more important to look pretty than who-gives-a-damn dress warm. Only a guy would have that response. Men have it so much easy than woman. And I don't think I say that because I am a woman but because it is just a fact of life and it happens to be true. Love being a woman, couldn't stand the even thought of being a man, but thats why its so hard our here. I want to look beautiful all the time, even when I wake up, its important to me. And if only men knew how long and how much trouble we women go through to look good and pretty, you would all appreciate it even more.

Well thats what I am about to do right now. Jump in the shower, wash/condition my hair, blow-dry my hair, then straighten my hair ( we are talking at least an hour now ) then apply my makeup and sort through these horrible boxes that won't go away, for something eye-catching and appealing to wear. I am a leo, I don't know if you are into astrological signs at all, but I am extremely curious to know yours, but if you know anything about leo women they are very vain and proud and looking good is one of the most important things to me and probably most other leos. Its a more of a curse than a blessing especially when your over 30 and every little wrinkle or line practically ruins your year.

I look forward to being your new friend and I hope you feel the same. Its really cool too to say I actually know someone from London!! Thats awesome!

Love writing to you and look forward to it.

Your new friend.

Tracey

Comment by Lewis Taylor on October 7, 2011 at 8:53pm

Well lets hope for sleep tonight then!!! I'll message you on facebook then we can chat in a more easy to navigate way!

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