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Have you ever had a partner that you absolutely thought was the one person that you could not live without?? I have...I started dating this girl Courtney last summer in June, we were the perfect couple for about eight months. I started losing sleep and i became angry at the world and i found myself taking it out on Courtney. I never hit her or touched her in an aggressive way, im not that type of person, i would have let her beat me with a bat and i wouldn't have retaliated. I just became…

Strangely Quiet

       Late at night through early morning is the quietest part of the day.......

   After everyone has settled in their houses, cars quit going by, and even the dogs are quiet, the beautiful lack of sound occurs. At first it takes you a bit to identify what it is that you're not hearing. Once you do, you never again miss…

I had a strange feeling overcome me today.. something I had never felt before. It made me weak, I want to call it love but even that seems wrong. I thought about you.. I really thought about everything. Things that I havent been able to face, now I can see clearly in front of me. I don't like you, everything about you is soo wrong . Yet your face won't leave my mind. I know how you feel, but you don't know how I do. This is for you, and I know you will never find it because I am to scared.…

Trapped, in the square bubble.. waiting for my mind to drift, or maybe to come up with the 'bright idea' that could save my life.

-Though, time can past.. thoughts can sway. I am still here, staring at the same blank wall, still wearing my same blank face.…

The shadow, so complete... They whisper to my insides-- calling me to slumber. Leaving the connection, fringes me. I am cold and I am dark. I’m nothing like you and still you want me.

I love the green in your eyes,…

The feeling of the age, trust. Looming over our heads, do I trust them? Do I trust myself?

I read a good passage about it, how trust doesn’t come easy-

Though what if it never…

The night before school and all through the house not a creature was stiring, not even a mouse. Wait, what was that? Ohh the rest of my family sleeping. Great! Just another thing to remind me its 3 am, and I am restlessly wait for sleep to overtake me. Though just like the night before I sit hear waiting for a broken wish. The only question I can think of: Why me?

 Well new years came around and I wasn't expecting anything but I got a message from a friend that I was invited to a party. I wasn't sure I wanted to go because I'm not much of a party-er ( I know my pic says otherwise) or very social at all but I kinda wanted to get wasted so I went. The party turned out to be a good time and I got drunk as all hell after drinking a whole bottle of my favorite rum (Kraken) and was looking forward to passing out wherever they would let me. I hoped I could…

i was looking forward that because of the booze i would have a good night sleep like i did before when i drank but no it seems my anxiety,insomnia is more stubborn, the worst part is being in bed and rolling around frustrated i am lucky that i don't have to get up early but i think that's the main issue of my anxiety and worsen insomnia because of being unemployed and having nothing to do during the day. I am really considering giving up and try meds, they dont give me real sleep but at…

Hi All,

First of all I wish you a happy new year, with lots of good nights with deep sleep and lovely dreams in you REM sleep, and waking up fully refreshed and armed with lots of energy to face the new day... Or at least little steps in this direction!

And yes, the title line is correct! After trying anything under the sun and giving up on the idea of sleep altogether, I can now actually finally sleep. What changed this? Well, you wouldn't believe it, no pill or changes in…

Isn't sleeping supposed to be the time when we relax and finish off the day? when we close our eyes and leave the day behind to go into lala land? Sometimes i really hate my insomnia and curse it but then i can't help it and i try to think everybody has some issues and there are many insomniacs out there not just me , this relieves me a little but still...i wish they would finally invite the non addictive none REM sleep disturbing , no tolerance building magic pill for people like us,…

So I opened my presents this Christmas Eve ,got a bunch of games, couldn't sleep, and decided to to walk to my nearest convenience store (mini-mart in Wyo-slang) even though I knew they didn't have my flavor of caffeine fix. I found out it was cold as the seventh circle of hell and damn eery at around 11pm christmas eve here in Casper. Awkwardly i saw one other soul in the entirety of downtown Casper out walking to somewhere as well. We exchanged quite a few looks as we realized we were…

 I'm not sure about most Insomniacs but every night I go through a pattern, a series of steps, before I give up on sleeping. I decide to try to go to bed early but just lie there for a couple of hours trying to sleep and actually getting close once and awhile. Eventually though what I call my "Insomnia Buzz" kicks in and i feel like I can run a marathon. Once that wares off and I get bored (which I'm sure we all get) I walk to the nearest Mini-mart and get myself a NOS energy drink so I…

Color Days

Laughing,…

Hi everyone, having suffered from bouts of Insomnia on many occassions, I thought would suggest you take a look at something that 'sorted me out' - visit  www.glotosleep.ie  it's brilliant and it worked a treat. So effective and so inexpensive too! I've always said that an insomniacs world is one of the lonelist places in the world. This might just be the answer for you or your loved one too. All the best.

I am new to this website (or even going on line for that matter) but I am very experienced with a life of insomnia. I stumbled upon this site while looking for support in this ever challenging area of my life. I am a stay at home mom with 3 young children. (all sleeping well luckily) We have struggled in a lot of ways from the consequenses of me going for long periods with little or no sleep. There is nothing harder for me about it than the fear that I will screw up something while caring…

Ah, here I go again. Out of my sleeping pills, along with my two other nighttime meds and I am shaking like a leaf and will likely be up all night. I always seem to fall asleep about 1/2 hr before I have to get up, which makes it worse!

It's really hard now that I have suffered seizures from Zopiclone withdrawal, so I am always terrified to lessen the dose. I am seeing my Dr. once a week to try and work on this. However, in addition to worrying about seizures, I also get terrible…