The feeling of the age, trust. Looming over our heads, do I trust them? Do I trust myself?

I read a good passage about it, how trust doesn’t come easy-

Though what if it never…

The night before school and all through the house not a creature was stiring, not even a mouse. Wait, what was that? Ohh the rest of my family sleeping. Great! Just another thing to remind me its 3 am, and I am restlessly wait for sleep to overtake me. Though just like the night before I sit hear waiting for a broken wish. The only question I can think of: Why me?

 Well new years came around and I wasn't expecting anything but I got a message from a friend that I was invited to a party. I wasn't sure I wanted to go because I'm not much of a party-er ( I know my pic says otherwise) or very social at all but I kinda wanted to get wasted so I went. The party turned out to be a good time and I got drunk as all hell after drinking a whole bottle of my favorite rum (Kraken) and was looking forward to passing out wherever they would let me. I hoped I could…

i was looking forward that because of the booze i would have a good night sleep like i did before when i drank but no it seems my anxiety,insomnia is more stubborn, the worst part is being in bed and rolling around frustrated i am lucky that i don't have to get up early but i think that's the main issue of my anxiety and worsen insomnia because of being unemployed and having nothing to do during the day. I am really considering giving up and try meds, they dont give me real sleep but at…